Have been better

I feel dreadful.

I haven’t fully recovered from the virus the whole family had a few weeks before Easter. It left me deaf in my right ear so I asked for an urgent doctor’s appointment because I knew if things got bad there would be no way of tracking a doctor down in Stratton-on-the-Fosse. The Dr said she couldn’t see anything wrong but gave me a course of doxycycline. It didn’t help.

My right ear is still deaf, the left has loud buzzes and whistles. I still feel viral. The glands in my neck and groin are swollen and it feels as if I should have a temperature but I haven’t. I feel teeth-chattery-achy, frozen, in a winter nightie and jersey, with an electric blanket, two duvets, a quilt and a blanket and the temperature taken in my ear is always below 35. My sinuses are blocked and burning and I have no strength. My eyeballs ache; my head aches and I can feel two abscesses brewing.

I felt ill all day but at 4pm started with diarrhoea with violent gut spasms. I was too weak to keep going from the bedroom to the bathroom that I took a blanket in there and stayed for as long as I could remain upright. I left my mobile in there too as I felt I was going to pass out and wanted to be able to get in touch with someone if I had to.

The diarrhoea has stopped but I feel drained, very drained. What worries me is that we are almost out of cat food and there is no way I could go and get some. Everything is running low and there isn’t anything I can do about it. Michelle is staying at my mother’s house while she is away in SA, Caelyn is broke and won’t be able to come until payday and Terrie is not able to cope with shops and even if she was, I don’t feel well enough to maintain a conversation. Caelyn has kidney stones again, and whatever this bug is, we don’t want baby Wendy to get it. That would be the worst possible thing.